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[21 Oct 2007|11:20pm] |
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[01 Oct 2007|03:52pm] |
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life seriously just keeps getting worse and worse.
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[23 Jul 2007|12:37pm] |
it seems like as people get older, they become less vague on their livejournals. just something i've noticed.
well life has most certainly been on the rocks recently. fabian and i break up every other week. more like every couple of days. it's not a healthy relationship by any means. at this point i'm seriously doubting our ability to get our shit together. we're both completely out of patience for one another. the good times are so few and far between... and generally that's when we aren't sober.
when you start to be unhappy in your relationship, you begin to question your motivation to stay in it. a relationship isn't something that anyone NEEDS to have at a certain time. a relationship is something you decide to do if it feels right, and you do it with a person that makes you happy. if you aren't happy there's really no point in wasting your time. it seems so simple on paper. but when you fall deeply in love with someone, and everything is wonderful and you're happy, but then something traumatic happens... or a serious of traumatic events occur... what then? are some situations really just so far gone? ... can some things really just NOT be worked out? i'm a hopeless romantic so i'm more inclined to say that i'll do anything to save my relationship... but 2 people have to be willing to let EVERYTHING go, until the big and little things don't matter anymore.
patience really is a virtue. it's so important in a relationship. that, and communication. both of which are completely fucked for fabian and i.
relationships are so difficult. i'm 20 years old, going on 21. i know that's young. it just hurts when you want nothing more than to make something right... and it seems that God himself is giving you every sign that it isn't going to work
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[15 Jun 2007|09:18pm] |
jennifer hudson posted this picture on her myspace. she looks pretty fabulous. too bad i didn't even realize at first that the woman on the left was fantasia. ew. you're famous now... do you really still go out in public like that? :\ sry. love the new song, though.
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[10 May 2007|04:11pm] |
some dude named Nutter is running for mayor here in philly.
... haha. nutter.
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[02 May 2007|12:02pm] |
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i've become accustomed to smoking a blunt alone before class. i'm pretty into it.
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[26 Feb 2007|04:11pm] |
i'm going back to maryland this weekend for the first time in 2 months. i'm bringing lyndsey with me, as well. it's katie's birthday weekend also, so it should be really good times. then next thursday is the beginning of my spring break! how exciting.
oh, and i have to wear one of those night guard things in my mouth when i go to sleep now, because i grind my teeth constantly. it's pretty attractive, definitely not nerdy in any sort of way.
i've been super into my digital photo lately, and my color photo class is going swimmingly! i think it makes me never want to shoot in black and white again. kind of. i like playing with the color enlargers.
nap time.
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[29 Dec 2006|08:32pm] |
things that make me happy:
-feel good movies (such as The Pursuit of Happyness, which i saw today and loved)
-thrift stores (i've made a ridiculous amount of amazing finds this past break, which i will post asap)
-homemade chicken salad (DELICIOUS)
-road trips (tomorrow fabian and i are going to gathersburg for a get together at a woman's house that he used to know)
-cameras & camera manuals (i'm a nerd)
-when my puppy is nice to me and doesn't bite
-bookstores and gift cards (both of which i will utilize at some point tomorrow)
there is much more but i'm going to play with a puppy now.
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[05 Dec 2006|01:50pm] |
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winter is the best time of year because it is the time of year when people dress their dogs in sweaters. i find this to be irrefutably adorable. anyone who says otherwise is most likely too evil to find joy in a clothed puppy... i.e the spawn of satan etc.
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[19 Nov 2006|03:01pm] |
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every day i hate where i am and i hate where i'm going.
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[17 Nov 2006|03:30pm] |
i spent the entire morning cleaning my apartment. it's crazy how that can make you feel so great.
and i just rolled a fat one.
and i'm about to smoke it to myself.
fridays kind of rule.
oh yea, and i'm considering moving back to maryland.
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[12 Oct 2006|05:05pm] |
i'm very confused about my life right now.
i don't know what to do, where to go, or who i should be around.
in the mean time i'll busy myself with school, i suppose.
nice guys ALWAYS finish last.
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[04 Oct 2006|05:39pm] |
i really want to go home.
PS. this journal is friends only from now on.
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[04 Oct 2006|12:51pm] |
proud of my life, and the things that i have done
proud of myself, and the loner i've become
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[26 Sep 2006|12:42am] |
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i'm beyond annoyed.
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[21 Sep 2006|09:52pm] |
today, i broke one of our kitchen drawers because i slammed it really hard when i was angry.
i think my temper is catching up with me. every time i get angry lately i have the urge to hit something. i'm almost just waiting until someone pisses me off enough to wear i have no problem punching them in the fucking face.
anything i want, i'm going to have to do for myself.
people are just so disappointing.
please, don't do me any favors.
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[15 Sep 2006|02:23pm] |
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sometimes life is so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, fucking STUPID.
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[13 Sep 2006|01:12pm] |
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set your goals- mutiny |
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i still love set your goals :[
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[06 Sep 2006|04:30pm] |
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camp lo- luchini |
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tomorrow, i am taking a much desired trip home immediately after my only class of the day. i'll probably spend today working on homework for tomorrow's class, washing clothes, and cleaning this disgusting excuse of an apartment. i didn't get to see or hang out with anyone this week.
i'm really getting sick of this apartment.
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[05 Sep 2006|09:46pm] |
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beyonce- ring the alarm |
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once again. music choice. whats with me lately? i feel a little random.
but i'm in love with this song. don't ask me why.
it might have something to do with the fact that i'm a mad black woman.
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